Lifes a bit shit at the moment

Life’s a bit shit at the moment, I find quite often it goes like that. You can be on top of the world one day and thanking your lucky stars about how sweet things are and then the universe finds out and pulls the rug out from underneath you.

 

I am normally quite honest with my readers but this is stuff I can’t and won’t discuss for the time being. Rest assured hubby and I are fine as are our babies ( Mollie and Frankie). Its stuff outside us our little bubble that is impacting us. Its having a massive impact on my mental health as in my anxiety has spiralled out of control again, I feel constantly that I am on the verge of a panic attack if I am not 100% distracted.

 

I hate holding stuff back as I like to think above all else I am honest with you but it’s not my story or my life. The people in my bigger circle deserve their privacy and I will always respect that.

 

On top of this the heat has suddenly got to me. I can’t move without palpitations, I am feeling faint and generally exhausted. I would be very happy for a few cooler days just to give my body a rest and get things on a more even keel.

 

Due to everything that is going on at the moment not a lot of sewing has taken place. I have lost a bit of my sewjo, I have managed to get three bags started for friends and hopefully they will be completed this week. I just need the space and time to be able to do this, thankfully they are all very understanding and know that I can’t work to tight deadlines as I never know when my health will let me down. The mind is willing the body says nah!

 

I have decided to name my little dog walking pouches The Travis Bag,  after our first Weimaraner, who brought such love and joy to our lives. He loved his walks so I think it’s apt that these bags are named after him.

 

CBD Life product review

As you know I rarely do product reviews due to the fact I think many bloggers don’t inform their readers that they are being paid to promote products. I receive no free products or money when I do a review. The products ( and there have been only a handful in the 10 years I have been blogging) I have reviewed have always been purchased by me and today the product I will be talking about was bought by me and I have no links to the company, nor have I received any money / financial incentive for this product review.

 

I follow quite a few chronically ill bloggers on various social media platforms. I pay close attention to those that have EDS because quite often they will tell you something about a product be it a brace, crutches or pain relief that you didn’t know. I was very interested when one of them said that she had been using the CBDLife products – their website can be found here  with good results. https://Cbdlifeuk.com/cbd-products/

 

I have tried cannabis oil before ( the legal stuff before anyone gets animated) but it did nothing for me other than taste absolutely foul. I had the stuff you had to drop under your tongue from a well-known national health food store It was disgusting stuff green and slimy. I think I managed to take it for a few days before I gave up. I was having to eat a teaspoon of sugar to get the grease and taste out of my mouth. From that bad experience I wrote off cannabis oil as a mad fad and nothing more. Until a friend of mine started talking about her experience of using products from CBDLife.

 

After being in excruciating pain for a few days and ever-increasing amounts of morphine not touching it I decided to take the plunge. If it didn’t work it was an expensive mistake but at this point anything was worth a go. I decided to choose the vaping method, which meant I would have to taste the stuff. Plus the blurb on the website says that the vape gets it into your system much quicker than any other route. I was a little worried about the vape as those of you who have followed my blog for a while will know I gave up smoking on 6th August 2017. I used a vape initially to help me quit for the first three weeks and then stopped using that. I haven’t smoked since. I was worried that the vape may trigger the desire to smoke but thankfully it hasn’t.

 

My vape arrived the day after I ordered it which is fab customer service. The only downside with the site, I feel is that you can only pay by credit card, bank transfer or bitcoin. I ended up paying by credit card as I felt I had a bit more protection. My vape arrived in this snazzy little case

 

 

Inside the case you have the cartridge containing cannabis oil, a USB connector to charge the vape and the vape part.

 

 

It all goes together very easily, it just simply screws together.

 

 

Now as I said earlier I had a shit experience with cannabis oil in the past and it did nothing for me. This vape contains a much stronger cannabis oil, as you can see from the sites blurb

 

https://cbdlifeuk.com/cbd-products/cbdlife-purepen-200mg/

 

I started using it as soon as it arrived. Initially the vape made me cough my guts up! I had the same issue when I stopped smoking and started using a vape. However with a couple of goes I got the hang of it. Now just to make this clear this cannabis oil is the completely legal stuff in the UK. I don’t get high or giggly or hungry taking it. Saturday night was the first time I noticed a difference, I slept the whole night through. That hasn’t happened in years, at least 10 years. No waking up in a blind panic, no waking up in pain. That really threw me and I just assumed it was a fluke.

 

However a few days later after using the vape 3 to 5 times a day, I realised that I hadn’t touched my oramorph ( liquid morphine) at all. I had a brand new bottle of it in my medicine cabinet and just hadn’t opened it. Now in all the time I have been taking oramorph that has never happened. Some days I am taking it every 4 hours to attempt to get my pain under control. I was in shock.

 

I was also sleeping all the way through the night and I was feeling much less anxious than I normally would. As I said earlier I haven’t slept through the night in years, it just never happens it doesn’t matter how tired I am, I will wake up between midnight / 1am and then I am awake until 3am / 4am. I have been like this for years no matter what medication the doctors give me to help me sleep.

 

I have been so impressed by the results of using the vape that I have dropped my slow release morphine at night from 30mg to 20mg. Again in all the years I have been taking morphine the dosage has only ever gone up never down.

 

During the last two weeks I have barely had to use a hot water bottle for back pain. I have had one bad day ( day 9) where I ended up using oramorph twice as my back was playing up and I also had some bowel adhesion pain.

 

I saw my gp last week when I was five days in using the vape and she was amazed at what I was telling her. I said this maybe the placebo effect but like she said who cares what it is if you are in so much less pain that you are able to reduce your morphine dosage. And do you know what she is right.

The type of pain I suffer from is muscle spasms, nerve pain, joint pain, basically every type of pain. It hasn’t got rid of my pain completely but then nothing ever has but it has helped massively with muscle spasms – which had me in agony every night. Even my feet have stopped going into spasm and that has never happened.

 

Overall I am incredibly impressed with this product, so much so that I bought an extra cartridge for it to ensure that I don’t run out….ever. If you suffer a great deal of pain / chronic pain it is certainly something to think about.

Quick list of improvements

Sleeping through the night for the first time in years

Not waking up in pain

Only needed to use a hot water bottle twice in last two weeks for back pain

Reduced my night time dosage of morphine by 10mg

Have used oramorph twice in just under 14 days

Muscle spasms have stopped (feet and back did it daily)

Less anxious

Feel calmer and happier