Well it seems 2016 wants to emulate the crapfest that was 2015, only with its own individual twist on things. In the last week I have managed to have three different courses of antibiotics, a nasty allergic reaction to one of the antibiotics, an abscess the size of a quails egg and a uti (urinary tract infection for the uninitiated). Not bad going really seeing though it is only just February.
I have spoken in the past about how I suffer from the chronic skin condition Hidradenitis Suppurativa Link. It’s a condition that produces painful abscesses on the body mainly under the breasts, on the buttocks and groin. Yeah I know it’s a laugh a minute. No one knows what causes it and it is very common amongst type 1 diabetics of which I am not. So my case is even more peculiar. Thankfully I know I am not alone dealing with this and have actually found out that I have a few friends who suffer with this. We tend to suffer in silence because who wants to admit that they have an abscess in their groin or under their bust ? It’s not a great conversation starter. The word abscess alone either conjures up images of IV drug users or bad personal hygiene. Personal hygiene has absolutely nothing to do with it, I have washed in hibiscrub and still developed enormous abscesses.
A week ago last Monday I woke up with an abscess in the crease of my thigh, the top of my leg, how can I describe this? Between your thigh and your lady or boy bits. A medical term no man’s land. It was huge and had come out of nowhere. On a scale of abscesses I have had before this was f**king huge, the pain actually woke me up. The pain wasn’t contained to the site of the abscess it also was creeping down my thigh. No position was comfortable and as the morning went on the bigger it grew. By the time it had reached 10am the abscess had hit the size of a quails egg hanging down from my thigh. If you are curious to see the size of a Quails egg click this Link.. Now obviously a Quails egg isn’t that big but it feels bloody ginormous when it is hanging from the top of your leg. I was so uncomfortable that I had to borrow a pair of my husbands trunk style boxer shorts as my own knickers were lying right across the abscess.
By 10:30am I was lying on my bed crying, I was going to have to ring the doctor’s surgery. Due to having chronic health conditions I hate running the gauntlet of the doctors receptionists. A number of them know me now and when I ask to speak to my own gp have no problem with asking him to ring me. However there are a number of newer staff who haven’t had the pleasure of meeting me and stick with the line Dr XXX isn’t the duty doctor today, which is exactly what I got. Thankfully my doctor must have been having a look at the list of calls needing to be made and he rang me back in 30 minutes.
I explained to him it was the worst one I had ever experienced. I forgot to mention that over the Christmas period I had been dealing with so many small abscesses I actually lost count. This is what is known as a HS flare, it is one of the most painful things I have ever had to endure. I am no baby when it comes to pain having endured a lumbar puncture and the removal of the side of big toe nail with a local anaesthetic that was no longer working. The only time I am a wimp is at the dentist. So I was prescribed the antibiotic Flucloxacillin which I have taken for years and had no problems with…..
I was lucky that my abscess burst the very next day, it was utterly disgusting, enough said. With the pressure gone the pain went. I was still feeling pretty rotten so I continued to take the seven-day course of antibiotics to avoid a secondary infection and the need for this abscess to be drained at the hospital.
Wednesday I woke up at 1am and took my antibiotic. About an hour later my face felt very itchy. I thought nothing of it, sometimes I get very itchy skin. With it being my face I tried not to scratch but as the morning went on it was becoming more and more uncomfortable. At 7:30am (having not been back to sleep) I took my next antibiotic within 30 minutes my face had erupted in small bumps and was bright red looking like I had been sun burnt. As I waited for the doctor’s surgery to open I could see that the redness was no longer confined to my face, it was now spreading down my neck and onto my chest. I knew having had these kinds of reactions before it was imperative that I took some antihistamine to slow the reaction down. I also very naughtily applied a weak steroid cream to my neck, face and chest. The itching was hitting an unbearable level and when it didn’t itch it was very sore.
It’s not a great photo but you can see how nice and blotchy I am.
In this picture it has calmed down a little but you can see how bumpy the skin on my face has become.
I was gutted by this allergic reaction as it means there is now another antibiotic I can’t take. Flucloxacillin has been my go to for years as I have had so many reactions in the past.
The pool of antibiotics that I can take safely is now little more than a puddle. It is starting to get quite dangerous. As I still needed to be on antibiotics to ensure the abscess was no more I was placed on Clindamycin. I had no allergic reaction with Clindamycin but the side effects of this medication were just too much. I lasted three days, I hate throwing in the towel with antibiotics but there are only so many bouts of explosive diarrhoea a girl can take and I can’t run that fast or at all really.
My face was slowly starting to subside and was no longer itchy, just very, very dry where the skin was starting to come off. I have had this reaction before with CT contrast dye so I knew what I was in for. At least this time I knew to moisturise like crazy, Vaseline has become a good friend as I plaster my face in it before I go to bed. I had a couple of reasonable days at the end of last week other than a disturbing symptom, I kept losing my central vision for a few seconds at a time. A black / grey dot kept appearing and then would disappear. I wont lie I was slightly concerned with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome there is a remote possibility that my retinas could detach. I decided that come Monday I would have to see my gp and discuss this with him.
On Sunday morning the dot kept appearing then disappearing. It was annoying me so much I mentioned it to my husband in a totally casual manner so as not to alarm him. Only an hour later I was struck down with a classic migraine, I had just been experiencing the longest prodrome I had ever experienced. For more information on the four stages of migraine click this Link. This was a classic migraine with aura, nausea and a lot of pain. The rest of Sunday was a right off and Monday wasn’t much better as I dealt with the after effects of the migraine. I hadn’t actually had a “proper” full on classic migraine since 1st November 2013 (my 40th birthday), thankfully that day the headache part of the migraine wasn’t too bad either that or it was masked by the copious amounts of alcohol I consumed. Having a migraine out of the blue like this was a shock, I normally only get them when I am stressed or over excited. I am hoping that this was a one off and that they won’t be coming back on a more regular basis.
By Tuesday I was still feeling rotten but I quickly realised that I had developed a UTI, cue more antibiotics. I also woke up that morning with a cracking bout of ptosis. Thankfully this went away within 35 minutes of taking mestinon. However it shows you how low everything has taken me. Its going to take me a while to bounce back.
It has taken me years to feel brave enough to post pictures of myself with ptosis. If you look very carefully you can see that my right pupil has also drifted and is no longer in alignment with the left pupil.
So it’s now Wednesday (3rd Feb) the day before my blog is published, by the seat of my pants I am getting the piece together. Today has been the first day I have felt well enough or had the concentration span long enough to write anything. I am hoping that this isn’t the start of another year of continued shitty health. As I said at the beginning of this post 2015 was a crapfest from the 26th February onwards I was constantly fighting to stay healthy. I lost, badly, I ended up being diagnosed with Meniere’s Disease in September and my prolactin levels decided to rise on their own accord making me hungry, fat and tired. I was so glad to see the back of 2015, I honestly thought this year I would be on top of the things that made 2015 so bloody awful. There was nothing now that I couldn’t handle.
I spent an hour in bed yesterday throwing a pity party for one wondering why the hell this was happening to me again? The answer always came back why the hell not? I climbed out of my bed after my mini tantrum and watched a film with hubby. Nothing was to be gained by lying in bed all day other than a really sore back. I refuse to give in and will push for as long and as hard as I can to ensure I control as much of my life as possible and not the motley crew of chronic health conditions I now have.
So to cheer everyone up here are some pictures of my hounds. They love me whatever is going on with my body!
Finally how I look makeup free without an allergic reaction going on.
2 thoughts on “Bouncing Back……I wish!”
I have Becehets disease which is kind of similar in that my skin breaks out in crazy sores and ulcers all of the time, last week after making out with a new beau, I awoke to over a dozen small sore and one large ulcer on my breast. My dr informed me that making out causes my immune system and cover any area that was touched or kissed to be come inflamed, red and infected. In addition I had never heard of ptosis but my Becehets caused my oil glands and eye lash follicles to become red and inflamed on one side about once a week creating a similar look to your ptosis.
Thank you for sharing and making me feel less alone in my embarrassing and painful struggles.
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Thank you so much for taking the time firstly to read my blog post and secondly for taking the time to leave a comment. I always love hearing from people and it’s really nice to know that a post has helped someone not to feel so alone with their chronic illness / condition.
I am really sorry that you have Bechets Disease, that is a horrible condition to have. I hope that you are managing ok. Your skin sounds so sore and you have my every sympathy. My skin has always been very sensitive and can react to things. I used to get a terrible rash all over my face when I snogged my husband if he hadn’t shaved. I know it’s known as stubble rash but it would last days. Not cool!
I write my blog as a way to vent my feelings and to help others. When I first got sick I didn’t know anyone with symptoms like mine. It was a very lonely world to inhabit. The more of us who speak up the less of a taboo conditions like HS will be. I am not ashamed that my body produces abscesses in the strangest of places. It is just one of its many quirks!
I am so pleased that you enjoyed the post. Thank you again for taking the time to leave a comment it is greatly appreciated.