I am so bored today! I don’t know what to do with myself. I can’t be bothered to watch TV, read or do any writing I am sick of my own company. I think this is a payback for a busy weekend and seeing my parents etc. I always have this come down the first day I am alone.
Normally I cope with my solitude pretty well finding things to do to entertain myself. Today I just can’t be arsed. It was even touch and go whether I could be bothered to post on my blog but I have forced myself to come here and write. It didn’t matter what it was about as long as I posted.
Entertaining yourself constantly when you are housebound the majority of the time can be a chore. Normally I manage to plan things that I would like to do that week. This week I have stuff to do I just don’t have any motivation to do them. They aren’t burning issues or anything I can get passionate about.
I’m not depressed, tearful, I don’t feel particularly unwell I know I have felt worse. I did try this morning to do some physical stuff but my heart rate went off the scale and left me feeling weird. That’s now passed. So what to do?
I find this mood strikes me when I have been active socially. I enjoy the company of others but normally I do enjoy my own company. Today I can’t stand my own company!!! I had two lovely visits from my parents over the weekend and one of my husbands friends came up for a visit as well. Hubs and I did a few jobs around the house together for me it was a busy weekend. I really enjoyed myself but now I am left with this empty feeling. Is this how every day of the rest of my life is going to be?
I know in reality obviously it isn’t, today I feel glum because I had such a good weekend. Tomorrow will be different and I will get on an even keel again.
Thank god I have my blog in which I can moan and whine to so that I don’t chew the ears off the people who are close to me.
I do have some good news I am tolerating the antibiotics and they are making a difference. They are making me very sensitive to sunlight but that’s a price I am willing to pay. So its not all bad!
I have to find some good in today!